I SAY YES WHEN I OUGHT TO SAY NO.

Ello Friends.

I honestly have not had much to say lately. Kind of weird. Guess I am just at a weird place in my life right now. Kind of stuck in between everything. Confusing. But not too horrible I guess. Could be worse.

I miss him. I miss him a lot. It hits me a random times. And when it hits me, it literally feels like some one punched me in the stomach. Or shot me through the heart.

I know he's in a better place now, but it still hurts just as much. The only difference is life gets in the way, and you think about it fewer times through out the day.

But when you DO think of it... it hurts, and it hurts like hell. I think it always will.

I just learned so much from him,  and he was such a huge part of my life and heart, I just hate that he's gone. Why'd he have to die? =(. I miss you.

I just hope he knows I tried to help him, and that I loved him more than anything. And that even though I get angry, and so upset, I am not mad at him for dying. I am just so in despair he's not physically with me. It's something I will NEVER get used to. Ever.

Went to the GAP today. Got 2 of my favorite tee's. They were on sale too yay!

Also got a bag and a long sleeve. 

(gap)

Well on another note. I'm watching the Boston Red Sox right now, GO SOX ! They're winning 1-0 but that means nothing because stupid devil rays can come back.

MORE IMPORTANTLY!       

Fashion weeks are over =( So So sad.

I'm already looking forward to next season. I think that I've honestly seen better seasons from all the designers. I'll be doing a review of everything very soon when I get some time off ! So stay put for that !!! 

I'm going all the fucking way to Connecticut for work tomorrow. PAIN. IN . THE. ASS

Nobody else would do it, so Id just fuck it i'll do it.

It made me the hero of the week So I guess it's cool.

And they are paying me for mileage.

The only bad part is I'm doing sales AND fashion consulting at the same time. So it is going to be a little hectic. Ah. But the supervisor there says that there are only like 12 shoots that day. So that's not too bad.

I hear the studio there is smaller as well, and the people might be weird? Well whatever. I'll just ignore every one, stick to dressing people, picking their clothes and setting up the shoots. It will be fine. 

I'm going to have to put up pictures of the studio some day. The good one. which is ours =). hehe. Not the other stupid one.

I'll hopefully have more interesting things to say soon.

Have a great night.

* and also I tried the starbucks vivanno banana chocolate shake today. Not too shabby. I would only eat if it's like the only thing i'm eating all day though, it has like a bagillion calories and shit. But delish. Ok bye.